Entirely

Drained
Exhausted
Sad
Empty
Full
Heavy
Broken

Today wasn't easy. Today I believe I hit my all-time low. For the
first time in 21 years I found myself literally crying out to God. I
was on the freeway sobbing and asking Him for something, even though I
couldn't put into words what I needed. It was a messy, raw, painful
drive home. I drove out to Riverside with my brother in the pasenger
seat and I drove home alone. I had never felt more desperate for some
kind of comfort or peace than today. All I wanted was confirmation
that my brother would come out of this detox clean and healthy and on
a new path. I do not have this guarantee or this comfort as of yet. It
may be because rehab was such a regular part of my fathet's life as I
was growing up. Rehab never made any permanent changes with him. I
want so much more than this for my brother. He needs and deserves so
much more than this.

Please pray